My brain is always working, trying to figure out how to finance the sunroom I've always wanted, or how to buy the hot tub Mr. Tide and I would both enjoy slipping into after a long day of yard work. So I'm always thinking about the next story I can write or the next photo shoot I can do. I'm what you might call and expert schemer!
This can be frustrating at times, especially since the economy has had a major impact on print media. Almost all publications have tightened up their belts in order to stay afloat, and as we all know, some of our beloved magazines could no longer keep all of the plates up in the air, and they went under.
I've been lucky, even though I could never pay the bills on my own with my writing and photography alone, I've been able to help at least a little. Writers don't really make heaps of money, though I think that some people think they do...and no one wishes this was true more than me!
So about 6 months ago, I decided to pursue photography which is more lucrative, but the competition is even more fierce than that of a freelance writer, so I knew that it would be an uphill battle. My goal was to maybe work for a few magazines in time, and to do some fine art photography with a little portrait work too. People, like my friend Fifi O'Neill, and the editors at several other magazines have been SO good to me! Fifi believed in me and gave me my first opportunity when I shot some bedding for Romantic Country, and then the Ekster Barn shoot, and for both of those assignments I will be forever thankful!
I know a lot of people look at Fifi and think, wow I wish I lived her life. Trust me, she works like a dog, and way harder than I would ever want to. She is constantly on the road and schlepping heavy furniture and accessories hither and yon to get the perfect shot, so I don't envy her, but I do admire her!!
Today, while sitting at my make-up mirror I began to think, something I always do, but today it was different. Instead of thinking about what I "need" or "want" I began thinking about the way I think about things.
Last night Mr. Tide and I spent the whole evening just hanging out. First we went out in the kayaks and it was a perfect evening. When we got back we went for a dip in the neighbors pool and that was wonderfully relaxing. As we floated around in the pool we talked about how nice it would be to have our own pool...or that elusive hot tub. And of course that conversation always gives way to our need for a truck, college tuition, and all of the other "stuff" that is a priority over the fun extraneous things we have to pay for in life.