Sunday, November 4, 2012
If I Needed You
Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments and support from my last post. Some of you have emailed to ask if the split was with my art partner Mary Beth, and thankfully we are just fine. The issue was with my business partner who I've been working with for many months now to create an online gallery to sell our artwork.
It wouldn't have been such a big deal, but I've been blessed with a wonderful opportunity which I will share with you soon, and that opportunity means I need a website in place by the end of this month. The website with the other person has been dragging on for months now, and so last Wednesday I phoned to ask the status and drive home the urgency of completing the site. Instead I found out what I had suspected all along, that the website was not going to happen.
What that means is that I will now be challenged with creating a website of my own in just a few short weeks, something I've never done before. I have to say that although the immediate future will be stressful, I've already nearly completed the website in the span of about 4 days and sleepless nights, and I'm feeling strangely optimistic and excited about everything that has transpired! The e-commerce hosting site has been hugely supportive and I can't thank my husband enough for watching youtube tutorial videos to help me while I created a logo and all of the graphics to fill the site.
There is lots more tweaking to be done, thumbnails to be uploaded, and pricing structure to be determined, but I'm moving forward and I actually believe that things will work out for the best in the long run.
Once again, when I needed you all to hold my hand and tell me everything would be ok, there you were. And as always my family has lifted me up and made me believe that I can do anything. For these blessings I will be forever grateful
If you have read my blog for any amount of time then you likely know that I feel deeply connected to family and friends who are no longer with me. I often feel their presence and see signs they send me letting me know that they are ok and that I will be too in times of trouble.
The day after I had the phone conversation that rocked my little world last week, I was all alone and sitting at my desk trying to wrap my head around how this would all shake out. I'm normally pretty good in the midst of a crisis, but even I was having trouble with the notion of all that lay ahead of me, and self doubt started rearing its ugly head. And then I heard it, just as clear as day and as if she were standing right beside me. It was my mother's voice, a voice I haven't heard for over 8 years since she passed away. She said "you can do this!" And it was at that very moment that I knew she was right, I could do this...and more importantly I would do this!
I guess sometimes we just need to hear that from our mom, that unconditional love and support that can come from a mother who believes in you, whether she is here in the flesh or walking beside you in spirit.
I heard a tiny bit of the song below yesterday in the movie The Stepmom, and I thought it summed it up in a way I will never be able to. And for all of those who are struggling tonight, wondering if you can make it, pick up the pieces, and face what lies ahead, no matter the challenge, I hope you hear a voice that will bring you comfort.