Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Today it finally hit me that I have an empty nest. As I gathered up laundry and began cleaning my house, I realized that I didn't have as many towels and sheets to clean, and that the hall bathroom sink and shower were dry as a bone from lack of use since our son moved out a week ago.
For the first time in almost 25 years, it was just me in the house, that no one besides the dogs needed tending to today, and I have to admit that I broke down in tears. I know this is the way life is supposed to work, but dang it, nobody really prepares you for that last little birdie to leave the nest.
I decided that instead of feeling sorry for myself, I would do what all momma birds must do when they find themselves alone in the nest, so I set about cleaning, rearranging, and embracing this next phase of my life. And I brought in a bunch of pretty hydrangea blossoms that my dear neighbor said I could have and plunked them into a lovely mason jar that once belonged to my grandmother.
I know it will take time for me to adjust to my youngest having flown the coop, but I managed to do that with our oldest, so I know it's possible. And even though he, and our daughter, are both not far away, today it felt as though they were continents away. I also know that if I still had little babies to tend to that I wouldn't be launching into a whole new career, so there is always a silver lining to be found, even when you wonder where the last 25 years have gone!
On Thursday, Mr. Tide and I will celebrate our 26th wedding anniversary, and for the first time since a year and a few months after we got married, we will be celebrating in a house built for 2 again. Change is good for the soul I think, even if it comes with a few tears and feeling a little blue every now and again!
Thanks everyone for your wonderful comments and emails about my new venture...at least I can't say I'm bored now that my kids are grown and living on their own, eh?!
Enjoy your week, the weather is near perfection here!